Trauma...feeling traumatized...I've been feeling a bit of that lately. Stepping out each day and wondering what will happen next, feeling a bit out of control and out of sorts with work, health, and weather. After today's holiday, I've decided to say screw it. I'm too happy to stay all melancholy about what may be and what has been. Lately, I've noticed that either you ARE happy, or you don't WANT to be happy. It is not the HAVEs or HAVE NOTs....change it, change what you want or change how you want to get what you want...achieve it...it can happen. Because, feeling a little bit of happiness creep in little by little is like not feeling it at all. Having it crash down around your head and heart, makes it pretty much evident that you aren't going to escape the tidal wave. I think I may need to learn to surf, this is going to be a long and wonderful ride.
Flyleaf
"Fully Alive" Telling Layla's story spoken 'Bout how all her bones are broken Hammers fall on all the pieces Two months in the cover creases
Fully alive More than most Ready to smile and love life Fully alive and she knows How to believe in futures
All my complaints shrink to nothing I'm ashamed of all my somethings She's glad for one day of comfort Only because she has suffered
Fully alive More than most Ready to smile and love life Fully alive and she knows How to believe in futures
Fully alive More than most Ready to smile and love life Fully alive and she knows How to believe in futures
Fully alive More than most Ready to smile and love life Fully alive and she knows How to believe in futures
A really old joke, you can't have an opinion, I haven't given it to you yet...ok...ya so it goes something like that. But, because I do believe, along with everyone else, that the world revolves around me...because IT DOES. (I do not have ESP so as yet have no way of knowing what everyone else is thinking, so must therefore assume that I must only live my life....thus MY WORLD, people, at least Rucker gets it...he could be just humoring me.) It is always fine to have an opinion...just don't try GIVING it to someone else. Share it. Explain it. Lovingly, always.
I'm growing so disturbed
Nothing makes sense to me anymore
I'm learning to resist
Becoming more than you ever were
Can't explain what's come over me, come over me
Can't explain why it's so hard for me, so hard to see your side
Projecting all my anger
I can't seem to get this through to you
The walls are closing in
I dare you to walk in my shoes
Can't explain what's come over me, come over me
Can't explain why it's so hard for me, so hard to see your side
Your side
I won't see your side
Can't explain what's come over me, come over me
Can't explain why it's so hard for me, so hard to see your side
Can't explain what's come over me, come over me
Can't explain why it's so hard for me, so hard to see your side
I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
'Til all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw me wink, no
I've been on the brink, so
Tell me what you want to hear
Something that will light those ears
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
My God, amazing how we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don't really like my flow, no, so
Tell me what you want to hear
Something that will light those ears
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
Oh, got no reason, got no shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'ma tell you everything
So tell me what you want to hear
Something that will light those ears
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
So tell me what you want to hear
Something that will light those ears
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
All my secrets away, all my secrets away
For those interested in the fun of a go show:
Official Music Video
~Panic at the Disco~
Nine in the Afternoon
Back to the street where we began
Feeling as good as lovers can, you know
Yeah we're feeling so good
Pickin’ up things we shouldn’t read
It looks like the end of history as we know
It’s just the end of the world
Back to the street where we began
Feeling as good as love, you could, you can
Into a place where thoughts can bloom
Into a room where it's nine in the afternoon
And we know that it could be
And we know that it should
And you know that you feel it too
'Cause it's nine in the afternoon
And your eyes are the size of the moon
You could 'cause you can so you do
We're feeling so good
just the way that we do
When it's nine in the afternoon
Your eyes are the size of the moon
You could 'cause you can so you do
We're feeling so good
Back to the street
Down to our feet
Losing the feeling of feeling unique
Do you know what I mean?
Back to the place
Where we used to say
Man it feels good to feel this way
Now I know what I mean
Back to the street, back to the place,
Back to the room where it all began, hey
Back to the room where it all began
'Cause it's nine in the afternoon
Your eyes are the size of the moon
You could 'cause you can so you do
We're feeling so good
Just the way that we do
When it's nine in the afternoon [x3]
Engrossed in my own hoodle-doins...yes that is a word....I forget and forgive much easier. I overlook everyones propensity for drama and negativity, because ~ I am happy. It gives time to reflect on my own attitude over the last few years and makes me realize how easy it is to do. To be happy.
I also listen to a lot more music when I'm in this frame of mind. The music that I used to go to when I was angry,or mad, or depressed, now doesn't hold the same affect. I can sing and shout it at the top of my lungs and it's just great music, great lyrics, freaking awesome vocals, and makes me want to DANCE.
Sam asked me today if something was wrong, it has been the opposite, everything is right. I can feel it.
So anyway, about the lady with the cat in the stroller....what would make someone buy a cat stroller??? and why does a cat need to be 'walked' in a stroller.....just sayin'...
Chevelle ~ The Red ~
They say freak, When you're singled out, The red, well it filters through.
So lay down, the red is real, When his sight goes red again. Seeing red again, Seeing red again.
This change, he won't contain, Slip away, to clear your mind. When asked, who made it show, The truth, he gives in to most.
So lay down, the red is real When his sight goes red again.
So lay down, the red is real When his sight goes red again. So lay down, the red is real When his sight goes red again.
Seeing red again, Seeing red again, Seeing red again, Seeing red again, Seeing red again, Seeing red again, Seeing red again, Seeing red....
They say freak... When you're singled out. The red, it filters through...
This week, I've finally buckled down *giggle* and started writing for a project I am working on with a friend...Wow, ok, now I'm editing my blog, this sucks...for a very good friend. This project is something that has me thinking a lot about the past. It has me remembering a lot of things that I (before) would sooner forget than bring up or even try to deal with. That coupled with going out with Junior High and High School friends and our Reunion coming up...I'm OVERWHELMED with memories...and for once in my life...I love it. I am not hiding from it. I embrace what has made me who I am today. What has gotten me to this point in time that I am at RIGHT NOW. I adore today. I would not change today for the world. I want to share this with everyone ~ how I feel. OMG...how do you explain the years of not being who you were meant to be and 37 years later..poof, there you are?? I am Kerry. I have never been Kerry until today. I've been Ker-Bear...I've been your friend, your cousin, your daughter, your mother, your niece, your grandaughter, your step-mother, your sister-in-law, your wife, your ex-wife, your girlfriend, your lover...but not me. I don't do the things I do because you want me to, I do them because you deserve it, you need it, I want it...Amazing. If life has always been this simple, I wish I had known before...wish I could have been told before. But I don't think that is how it works. You have to find your edge. You have to find your own way. You have to discover what makes you, YOU, and decide whether that is fine enough or NOT. I am fabulously me. OMG am I ever. And you know they love me because of it. The ones that stay, the ones that fight for me and encourage me, and never doubt or destroy me...ADORE me for me. :) My minions.
This project will be the one that will make me scream NO NO I will never forget, NO NO I will never regret...NO NO I will live my LIFE!
Jump on...or you might miss the ride...It is an amazing one....
30 Seconds to Mars ~ Closer to the Edge
I don't remember the moment I tried to forget I lost myself, is it better not said I'm closer to the edge
It was a thousand to one and a million to two Time to go down in flames and I'm taking you Closer to the edge
[Chorus:] No I'm not saying I'm sorry One day maybe we'll meet again No I'm not saying I'm sorry One day maybe we'll meet again No no no no
Can you imagine a time when the truth ran free? The birth of a song, the death of a dream Closer to the edge
This never ending story Paid for with pride and fate We all fall short of glory Lost in our fate
[Chorus]
No no no no I will never forget No no I will never regret No no I will live my life
[Chorus]
Closer to the edge Closer to the edge No no no no Closer to the edge Closer to the edge No no no no Closer to the edge
Boy I think about it every night, and day I’m addicted, want to jump inside your love I wouldn’t want to have it any other, way I’m addicted, and I just can’t get enough
I just can’t get enough [4X] Honey got her sexy on steamin She give the hotness a new meanin Perfection, mami you gleamin Inception, you got a brother dreamin, dreamin Damn baby I’m fiendin I’m tryin to holla at you I’m screamin Let me love you down this evenin
Lovie lovie yeah you know you are my demon
Girl work it for my team an’ I could be the King, you could be the Queen an’ My mind’s dirty and it don’t need cleanin
I love you long time so you know the meanin
Oh baby I can’t come down, so please come help me out You got me feelin high and I can’t step off the cloud And I just can’t get enough
[Chorus]
I just can’t get enough [4X] Honey got me runnin like I’m Flo Jo Signed her name on my heart with an XO Love so sweet got me vexed though I wanna wish it right back like Presto, yes Meantime I wait for the next time She come around for a toast to the best time We LOL back and forth on the text line She got me fishin for her love, I confess I’m.. Somethin ’bout her smile and the convo Got me high and I ain’t comin down yo My heart’s pumpin out louder than electro She got me feelin like {MR. ROBOTO}
Oh baby I can’t come down, so please come help me out You got me feelin high and I can’t step off the cloud And I just can’t get enough
[Chorus]
“This, has been a switchup”
Switchup! [2X] I, just, can’t (switchup) Locked, sunk in your bed-rock Heart, pumpin your love-shot Knocked, out by your cold-shot I’m, stuck in your head-lock (switchup) Can’t-can’t stop-stop won’t-won’t quit-quit Makin me f-f-f-f-f-fiend, give it to me I want it all-all, know what I mean Your love is a dose of ecsta (switchup) Addicted, I can’t get, away from, you Afflicted, I need it, I miss it (switchup) I want your lovin right next to me And I can’t, erase you out of my memory-ory I, just, can’t, (switchup)
Jennifer Lopez On The Floor Lyrics (feat. Pitbull)
[Pitbull] Hey oh ay oh ay Let’s take the whole world on a ride J-LO! ya tu sabe no es mas nada Hey oh ay oh ay Let’s take the whole world on a ride Mr. worldwide Dale get on the floor Dale get on the floor Dale get on the floor Dale get on the floor Dale get on the floor Dale I want the whole world to Get on the floor Dale get on the floor Dale get on the floor Dale get on the floor Darling I want the whole world to Get on the floor
I’m loose And everybody knows I get off the train Baby it’s the truth I’m like inception I play with your brain So I don’t sleep I snooze I don’t play no games so don’t get it confused no Cuz you will lose yeah Now pump it up And back it up like a Tonka truck That badonka donk is like a trunk full of bass on an old school Chevy 7 trail donka truck All I need is some vodka and some chunka coke And watch a chick get donkey konged Baby if you’re ready for things to get heavy I get on the floor and act a fool if you let me dale Don’t believe me just vet me My name ain’t Keath but I see why you Sweat me L.A. Miami New York Say no more get on the floor
[Jennifer Lopez] Dance the night away Live your life and stay out on the floor Dance the night away Grab somebody drink a little more La la la la la la la la la la la la la la Tonight we gon’ be it on the floor La la la la la la la la la la la la la la Tonight we gon’ be it on the floor
I know you gotta clap your hands on the floor And keep on rocking work it up on the floor If you’re a criminal kill it on the floor Steal it quick on the floor On the floor Don’t stop keep it moving put your drinks up It’s getting ill it’s getting sick on the floor We never quit we never rest on the floor If I ain’t rolling I may die on the floor Brazil, Morocco, London to Ibiza Straight to L.A. New York Vegas to Africa
Dance the night away Live your life and stay out on the floor Dance the night away Grab somebody drink a little more La la la la la la la la la la la la la la Tonight we gon’ be it on the floor La la la la la la la la la la la la la la Tonight we gon’ be it on the floor La la la la la la la la la la la la la la Tonight we gon’ be it on the floor La la la la la la la la la la la la la la Tonight we gon’ be it on the floor
Freak it off kick it up Raise the roof wreck the dancehall Rip these walls light it up Make some noise ohhh
Dance the night away Live your life and stay out on the floor Dance the night away Grab somebody drink a little more La la la la la la la la la la la la la la Tonight we gon’ be it on the floor La la la la la la la la la la la la la la Tonight we gon’ be it on the floor La la la la la la la la la la la la la la Tonight we gon’ be it on the floor La la la la la la la la la la la la la la Tonight we gon’ be it on the floor Tonight we gon’ be it on the floor Tonight we gon’ be it on the floor
No matter how many times that you told me you wanted to leave No matter how many breaths that you took, you still couldn't breathe No matter how many nights that you lie wide awake to the sound of the poison rain Where did you go? Where did you go? Where did you go? As days go by, the night's on fire
Tell me would you kill to save a life? Tell me would you kill to prove you're right? Crash, crash, burn, let it all burn This hurricane's chasing us all underground
No matter how many deaths that I die I will never forget No matter how many lives I live, I will never regret There is a fire inside and it started a riot about to explode into flames Where is your god? Where is your god? Where is your god?
Do you really want? Do you really want me? Do you really want me dead? Or alive to torture for my sins?
Do you really want? Do you really want me? Do you really want me dead? Or alive to live the lie?
Tell me would you kill to save a life? Tell me would you kill to prove you're right? Crash, crash, burn, let it all burn This hurricane's chasing us all underground
The promises we made were not enough The prayers that we prayed were like a drug The secrets that we sold were never known The love we had, the love we had, we had to let it go.
Tell me would you kill to save a life? Tell me would you kill to prove you're right? Crash, crash, burn, let it all burn This hurricane's chasing us all underground
Do you really want? Do you really want me? Do you really want me dead? Or alive to torture for my sins?
Do you really want? Do you really want me? Do you really want me dead? Or alive to live the lie?
