Just the facts Ma'am.

Say what you mean, mean what you say...life can be much easier this way, and you can be much happier. For real.
And she presses 'Release'....


Spill Canvas ~"All Over You"

Yeah he's a looker,
but I really think it's guts that matter most.
I displayed them for you,
strewn out about from coast to coast.


I am easily make believe,
just dress me up in what you want me to be.
I'll take back what I've been saying for quite some time now.


I gotta feel you in my bones again,
I'm all over you.
I'm not over you.
I wanna taste you one more time again,
I'm all over you.
I'm not over you.


In my daydreams, in my sleep,
infatuation turning into disease.
You could cure me, see all you have to do now
is please try.
Give it your best shot and try.
All I'm asking for is love,
but you never seem to have enough.


I gotta feel you in my bones again,
I'm all over you.
I'm not over you.
I wanna taste you one more time again,
I'm all over you.
I'm not over you.
This life is way too short
to get caught up in all this stuff
when I just want you to love me back,
why can't you just love me back?


Why can't you just love me back?
(why can't you, why can't you)
Why can't you just love me back?
(why can't you, why can't you)
Why can't you just love me back?
(why can't you, why can't you just love)


I gotta feel you in my bones again,
I'm all over you.
I'm not over you.
I wanna taste you one more time again,
I'm all over you.
I'm not over you.
This life is way too short
to get caught up and all mixed up
when I just want you to love me back,
why can't you just love me back?


Why won't you just love me back?


Why can't you just love me back?





Katy Perry ~ " Hot n Cold "

You change your mind, like a girl changes clothes
yeah you PMS like a chick I would know
and you over think, always speak critically
I should know that you're no good for me

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up
(You) You don't really wanna stay, no
(You) you don't really wanna go-oh
'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down


We used to be just like twins, so in sync
The same energy now's a dead battery
Used to laugh, 'bout nothing
Now you're plain boring
I should know that you're not gonna change


'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up
(You) You don't really wanna stay, no
(You) you don't really wanna go-oh
'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down


Someone call the doctor
Got a case of a love bipolar
Stuck on a roller coaster
Can't get off this ride


You change your mind, like a girl changes clothes


'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up


You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up
(You) You don't really wanna stay, no
(You) you don't really wanna go-oh
'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down

The best of Summers...love, laughs, friends, and family.

This summer I took a huge leap.  I made decisions for myself.  Doesn't seem big, right? Don't people do that all the time?  You pick your food, your clothes, where you go, what you do...well I haven't, not for years. Not until this summer. This was HUGE for me, and I did it with a little help from my friends, my new Teenie family. Luv Luv Luv them. Cry when I leave them. Every time. They took me and the SIC in. Love us like one of their own, unconditionally...and I KNOW this.  I don't have to worry, or think about it, I KNOW this...rare and beautiful is what it is. Still makes me cry. And I hate crying...so as she would say....LUBYA.

Neon Trees ~ Animal


Here we go again


I kinda wanna be more than friends
So take it easy on me
I'm afraid you're never satisfied.
Here we go again
we're sick like animals
we play pretend
you're just a cannibal
and I'm afraid I wont get out alive
no I won't sleep tonight.


Oh, oh
I want some more
Oh, oh
what are you waiting for?
Take a bite of my heart tonight.
Oh, oh
I want some more
Oh, oh
what are you waiting for?
what are you waiting for?
Say goodbye to my heart tonight.


Here we are again
I feel the chemicals kicking in
it's getting heavier
I wanna run and hide
I wanna run and hide.
I do it every time
you're killing me now
and I won't be denied by you
the animal inside of you.


Oh, oh
I want some more
Oh, oh
what are you waiting for?
Take a bite of my heart tonight.
Oh, oh
I want some more
Oh, oh
what are you waiting for?
what are you waiting for?
Say goodbye to my heart tonight.

Hush hush the world is quiet
hush hush we both can't fight it
It's us that made this mess
why can't you understand?
Woah I won't sleep tonight.
I won't sleep tonight.


Here we go again


Oh, oh
I want some more
Oh, oh
what are you waiting for?
Take a bite of my heart tonight.
Oh, oh
I want some more
Oh, oh
what are you waiting for?
what are you waiting for?
Say goodbye to my heart tonight…
 
 



Buzz singing this at the top of his lungs...dancing with the kids after school...he pretty much knows every word...this will always remind me of him...


Train ~ Hey Soul Sister






I am fairly certain that everytime we got into Tina's car this summer this song was playing...I am not quite sure if I even like it...I think it freaks me out, just a lil bit...

The XX's ~ Crystallised







It was a great summer.

Simple things, simple life, simple me...

I guess the little things can get you caught up sometimes, overwhelm you, overshadow your goals and what you are trying to achieve.  I have been letting this happen more often than not. But as previously stated, I'm taking it back...I'm learning to love my Mondays, baby step 1, baby step 2...learning to let go. Learning to let go of the SIC...my Second in Command.  This weekend will be his first ever sleep over. He got a phone call this evening, from his best friend from his former school.  I have NEVER seen him so excited about anything, I don't even think CHRISTMAS got him this excited. He has never spent the night over at someone's house, nor has he asked me to do this and gone through with it. BABY STEPS.  We will do it together.  Simply put...Life is sweet. We will do it together, and MAN, are we having FUN!

I DON'T WANT TO BE ~ GAVIN DEGRAW

I don't need to be anything other

Than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other
Than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other
Than the birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going, is knowing where I'm coming from


[Chorus:]
I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me


I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one who noticed?
I can't be the only one who's learned!


[Chorus]


Can I have everyone's attention please?
If you're not like this and that, you're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain
The crust of creation
My whole situation-made from clay to stone
And now I'm telling everybody


[Chorus]


I don't want to be
I don't want to be
I don't want to be
I don't want to be

End of Summer....Beginning of Fall...

I enjoy the changing of seasons...the never really knowing how the weather is going to be the next day, anticipating the crisp air in the morning and constantly waking up in the dark.  But more than that, I love the fact that the kids are back to school and the streets (and Stores) can now belong to the adults once again.  I enjoy the peace...at least while it lasts.

Songs I love to sing out loud:

Linkin Park ~ Crawling

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real


There's something inside me
That pulls beneath the surface
Consuming, confusing
This lack of self control I fear
Is never ending, controlling


I can't seem to find myself again
My walls are closing in
(Without a sense of confidence)
(I'm convinced that there's)
(Just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before so insecure


Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real


Discomfort, endlessly has pulled
Itself upon me distracting, reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting how I can't seem


To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(Without a sense of confidence)
(I'm convinced that there's)
(Just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before so insecure


Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real


Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing, confusing what is real


There's something inside me
That pulls beneath the surface
Consuming
(Confusing what is real)
This lack of self control I fear
Is never ending, controlling
(Confusing what is real)



Linkin Park ~ From the Inside

I don't know who to trust, no surprise

Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts sift through dust and the lies


Trying not to break
But I'm so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself
Get back up on my feet


All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me


Take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
'Cause I swear for the last time
I won't trust myself with you


Tension is building inside, steadily
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts forcing their way out of me


Trying not to break
But I'm so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself
Get back up on my feet


All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me


Take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
'Cause I swear for the last time
I won't trust myself with you


I won't waste myself on you
You, you
Waste myself on you
You, you


I'll take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
'Cause I swear for the last time
I won't trust myself with you


Everything from the inside
And just throw it all away
'Cause I swear for the last time
I won't trust myself with you
You, you