Yes, it is en el fuego...or something was...

I find it completely ironic that my last blog was about water and this one is about fire. What does that mean?  I don't have any plans for Earth or Air coming up any time soon...for real. Fire, one of the more feared elements I would think.  Awesomely coveted and harnessed for many uses. I love to look into a burning fire. Listen to it crackle around the wood as it burns. Feel the heat when you sit just close enough to have it caress your skin...amazing. I will tell you, though,  that when your body is on fire it is not at all pleasant...


There are times when I think, have my friends and I always been like this? Has it always been that I'm texting them and they retort with a song or song lyric??? Maybe, perhaps...it is divine. But if you are lucky, when you text your friend that you are currently on fire, one will give you this...not so much a gift - but a darn good memory...of driving in the car...asking, WHAT? Did they just say that? REALLY???? 

Kings of Leon 'Sex On Fire' 

Lay where you're laying, don't make a sound
I know they're watching, they're watching
All the commotion, the kiddie like play
Has people talking, talking

You, your sex is on fire

The dark of the alley, the breaking of day
The head while I'm driving, I'm driving
Soft lips are open, knuckles are pale
Feels like you're dying, you're dying

You, your sex is on fire
Consumed with what's to transpire

Hot as a fever, rattling bones
I could just taste it, taste it
If it's not forever, if it's just tonight
Oh, it's still the greatest, the greatest, the greatest

You, your sex is on fire
And you, your sex is on fire
Consumed with what's to transpire

And you, your sex is on fire
Consumed with what's to transpire

My water finally broke.

I am the listener. The shoulder. The one they call on. Didn't even occur to me that I would need someone eventually. Today my dam finally busted. I had it. God finally had shovelled it on thick with this new development. But what doesn't kill you and all that....apparently makes you go to the Spokane BFF and say WTF????

I will just acknowledge that I must have something profoundly AWESOME waiting for me down the line. I will be understanding. I will wait. I am patient. I have the capacity to know that God has a plan for me and it is always better than I imagine...so, Thanks J. Thanks for tonight, well every night that you want to hear me and I don't talk, because I would rather be the one to help than be the burden. I won't be doing that anymore. Ok, maybe I will, but I will try not to, and that is all that counts.


Nirvana 'Come As You Are'

Come as you are, as you were
As I want you to be
As a friend, as a friend
As an old enemy

Take your time, hurry up
The choice is yours, don't be late
Take a rest as a friend
As an old

Memoria, memoria
Memoria, memoria

Come doused in mud, soaked in bleach
As I want you to be
As a trend, as a friend
As an old

Memoria, memoria
Memoria, memoria

And I swear that I don't have a gun
No I don't have a gun
No I don't have a gun

Memoria, memoria
Memoria, memoria
(No I don't have a gun)

And I swear that I don't have a gun
No I don't have a gun
No I don't have a gun
No I don't have a gun
No I don't have a gun

Memoria, memoria

Sisters of my heart, body, and soul...

This week has been a rough week for many of my friends. It has made me realize how truly blessed I've been to have so many great girl friends (and some great guy friends, DON'T GET ME WRONG, but they just aren't the same, and they won't read this, so I don't need to wax on about how much they do for me, since internet things such as Facebook and Blogs, aren't quite as important as porn and gaming, beer and gambling...) My girl friends are my sisters. They are different in many ways, and the same in many ways. They have all made a room for themselves in my heart. They text me when they need me, they post something on my Facebook when they want to let me know they are thinking of me. When they are sad, lonely, heartbroken...I feel it too.

I'm always here. A phone call, text, Facebook, drive or plane flight away. Hugs and Kisses are free. You may be in New York, Montana, Texas, Washington, Colorado, Florida, or Massachusetts (You suck for making me spell that, by the way, LMAO) but to me - you are always in my heart!

Violent Femmes "Blister in the Sun"

30 Second break.

Today reminded me how short and beautiful life is.
No matter what, I will be by your side. Forever.

30 Seconds to Mars ~ Kings and Queens

Into the night
Desperate and broken
The sound of a fight
Father has spoken.

We were the kings and queens of promise
We were the victims of ourselves
Maybe the children of a lesser god
Between heaven and hell, Heaven and hell.

Into your eyes
Hopeless and taken
We stole our new lives
Through blood an pain
In defense of our dreams
In defense of our dreams

We were the kings and queens of promise
We were the victims of ourselves
Maybe the children of a lesser god
Between heaven and hell, Heaven and hell.

The age of man is over
The darkness comes and all
These lessons that we've learned here
Have only just begun

We were the kings and queens of promise
We were the victims of ourselves
Maybe the children of a lesser god
Between heaven and hell.

We are the kings
We are the queens
We are the kings
We are the queens