I'm finally fully alive

Trauma...feeling traumatized...I've been feeling a bit of that lately. Stepping out each day and wondering what will happen next, feeling a bit out of control and out of sorts with work, health, and weather.  After today's holiday, I've decided to say screw it. I'm too happy to stay all melancholy about what may be and what has been. Lately, I've noticed that either you ARE happy, or you don't WANT to be happy.  It is not the HAVEs or HAVE NOTs....change it, change what you want or change how you want to get what you want...achieve it...it can happen. Because, feeling a little bit of happiness creep in little by little is like not feeling it at all. Having it crash down around your head and heart, makes it pretty much evident that you aren't going to escape the tidal wave.  I think I may need to learn to surf, this is going to be a long and wonderful ride.

Flyleaf

"Fully Alive"
Telling Layla's story spoken
'Bout how all her bones are broken
Hammers fall on all the pieces
Two months in the cover creases


Fully alive
More than most
Ready to smile and love life
Fully alive and she knows
How to believe in futures


All my complaints shrink to nothing
I'm ashamed of all my somethings
She's glad for one day of comfort
Only because she has suffered


Fully alive
More than most
Ready to smile and love life
Fully alive and she knows
How to believe in futures


Fully alive
More than most
Ready to smile and love life
Fully alive and she knows
How to believe in futures


Fully alive
More than most
Ready to smile and love life
Fully alive and she knows
How to believe in futures