Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Reverse, revert, review...

24 hours later....


I'm exhausted. One thing I have figured out about exhaustion, is that when I'm tired, it actually hurts to move my face. As if the muscles are too tired to rearrange into any type of emotion...and yet I still can't sleep because my brain is working overtime. So my face may have taken a hiatus, but my brain is clearly on overdrive...so here I am...spouting my nonsense for you all to be mesmerized with...


The last few days have been rough. A lot of ups and downs in such a short amount of time might undo the faint of heart, but if you follow along in most love stories, you will notice there is always some evil horrible plot twist. Sometimes it leads to where the couple for some odd reason can't be together. A misunderstanding, miscommunication, family, friends, something keeps them apart, ruins their romance...something happens to prolong their happy ending. But...if you stick it through, and watch the entire movie, read the entire book, you just might get to see their happy ending. Asking someone to have faith, is not easy,  it isn't a lot to ask when you love each other. 


BUT...I've seen some of my friends, work through YEARS of waiting for their happy ending. Which is almost here. The things they have gone through...I can't even imagine. They are truly my heroes. Their perseverance, never ending faith and hope in love. (OK so their was some pouting..but who is counting) I'm happy to be here for the beginning of their journey TOGETHER...and just like them...I will wait. I will be patient...like i said, it isn't a lot to ask when it is all about love.

Foo Fighters ~Walk~

A million miles away
Your signal in the distance
To whom it may concern
I think I lost my way
Getting good at starting over
Every time that I return

I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?
I'm learning to talk again
Can't you see I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?

Do you remember the days
We built these paper mountains
And sat and watched them burn
I think I found my place
Can't you feel it growing stronger
Little conquerors

I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?
I'm learning to talk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?

Now
For the very first time
Don't you pay no mind
Set me free again

[ To keep alive a moment at a time
But still inside a whisper to a riot
To sacrifice but knowing to survive
The first to climb another state of mind
I'm on my knees, I'm praying for a sign
Forever, whenever
I never wanna die
I never wanna die
I never wanna die
I'm on my knees
I never wanna die
I'm dancing on my grave
I'm running through the fire
Forever, whenever
I never wanna die
I never wanna leave
I never say goodbye
Forever, whenever, forever, whenever

I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?
I'm learning to talk again
Can't you see I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?

I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
I'm learning to talk again
Can't you see I've waited long enough

Monday, February 6, 2012

That was yesterday, this is today...

How amazing is it how quickly things can change in a day.


Things you perceived to be one way are now another. No way to look back now. The past even if it is a mere 24 hours, means nothing.


Living and learning, being older and stronger, mean more than falsehoods and tantrums.


So today I am weak. Just for today, ok maybe a week. But when I'm done. You can deal with your own pain. I'm under and over it.


5FDP Under & Over It

Did you hear the one about me being a punk?
Did you hear the one about me being a drunk?
Did you hear the one about me losing my nerve?
Or how I'm just another fucking sheep in the herd?
Did you hear about the money, how it made me change?
So funny to me, all the time that they waste.
Did you hear the one about me giving a shit?
Cause if I ever did I don't remember it.

You can be me and I will be you.
You can live just like a star.
I'll take my sanity, you take the fame.
I'm under and over it all.
(I'm under and over it.)

Did you hear the one about me playing the game?
Selling my soul and changing my name.
Did you hear the one about me being a prick?
Did you know I don't care? You can suck my...
Did you hear the one about me trying to die?
Fist in the air and a finger to the sky.
Do I care if you hate me? Do you wanna know the truth?
C'est la vie... adiĆ³s... good riddance... fuck you!

You can be me and I will be you.
You can live just like a star.
I'll take my sanity, you take the fame.
I'm under and over it all.
(I'm under and over it.)
I, I, I'm under and over it.
I, I, I'm under and over it.

You can be me and I will be you.
You can live just like a star.
I'll take my sanity, you take the fame.
I'm under and over it all.
(I'm under and over it.)
I'm under and over it all.
(I'm under and over it.)
I, I, I'm under and over it.
I, I, I'm under and over it.