Stuck in my head...

Sometimes thoughts can be better than candy.

If you don't get that, you need to get out more.

Engrossed in my own hoodle-doins...yes that is a word....I forget and forgive much easier.  I overlook everyones propensity for drama and negativity, because ~ I am happy.  It gives time to reflect on my own attitude over the last few years and makes me realize how easy it is to do. To be happy.


I also listen to a lot more music when I'm in this frame of mind. The music that I used to go to when I was angry,or mad, or depressed, now doesn't hold the same affect.  I can sing and shout it at the top of my lungs and it's just great music, great lyrics, freaking awesome vocals, and makes me want to DANCE.


Sam asked me today if something was wrong, it has been the opposite, everything is right. I can feel it.


So anyway, about the lady with the cat in the stroller....what would make someone buy a cat stroller??? and why does a cat need to be 'walked' in a stroller.....just sayin'...

Chevelle ~ The Red ~

They say freak,
When you're singled out,
The red, well it filters through.

So lay down, the red is real,
When his sight goes red again.
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again.

This change, he won't contain,
Slip away, to clear your mind.
When asked, who made it show,
The truth, he gives in to most.

So lay down, the red is real
When his sight goes red again.

So lay down, the red is real
When his sight goes red again.
So lay down, the red is real
When his sight goes red again.

Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red....

They say freak...
When you're singled out.
The red, it filters through...

 

Never Forget, Never Regret...Mean it, Believe it.

This week, I've finally buckled down *giggle* and started writing for a project I am working on with a friend...Wow, ok, now I'm editing my blog, this sucks...for a very good friend. This project is something that has me thinking a lot about the past. It has me remembering a lot of things that I (before) would sooner forget than bring up or even try to deal with. That coupled with going out with Junior High and High School friends and our Reunion coming up...I'm OVERWHELMED with memories...and for once in my life...I love it. I am not hiding from it. I embrace what has made me who I am today. What has gotten me to this point in time that I am at RIGHT NOW. I adore today. I would not change today for the world. I want to share this with everyone ~ how I feel.  OMG...how do you explain the years of not being who you were meant to be and 37 years later..poof, there you are??  I am Kerry. I have never been Kerry until today. I've been Ker-Bear...I've been your friend, your cousin, your daughter, your mother, your niece, your grandaughter, your step-mother, your sister-in-law, your wife, your ex-wife, your girlfriend, your lover...but not me. I don't do the things I do because you want me to, I do them because you deserve it, you need it, I want it...Amazing.  If life has always been this simple, I wish I had known before...wish I could have been told before. But I don't think that is how it works. You have to find your edge. You have to find your own way. You have to discover what makes you, YOU, and decide whether that is fine enough or NOT.  I am fabulously me.  OMG am I ever. And you know they love me because of it.  The ones that stay, the ones that fight for me and encourage me, and never doubt or destroy me...ADORE me for me.  :) My minions.

This project will be the one that will make me scream NO NO I will never forget, NO NO I will never regret...NO NO I will live my LIFE! 

Jump on...or you might miss the ride...It is an amazing one....

30 Seconds to Mars ~ Closer to the Edge

I don't remember the moment I tried to forget
I lost myself, is it better not said
I'm closer to the edge

It was a thousand to one and a million to two
Time to go down in flames and I'm taking you
Closer to the edge

[Chorus:]
No I'm not saying I'm sorry
One day maybe we'll meet again
No I'm not saying I'm sorry
One day maybe we'll meet again
No no no no

Can you imagine a time when the truth ran free?
The birth of a song, the death of a dream
Closer to the edge

This never ending story
Paid for with pride and fate
We all fall short of glory
Lost in our fate

[Chorus]

No no no no
I will never forget
No no
I will never regret
No no
I will live my life

[Chorus]

Closer to the edge
Closer to the edge
No no no no
Closer to the edge
Closer to the edge
No no no no
Closer to the edge